The impact that each one of us, individually, can have on others is remarkable. I have been thinking a lot lately about what it is that I get the most joy out of. I have figured it out, helping people. I have learned that not everyone helps people in the same way; some give emotional support, others money, others service, others love. I feel like I never give enough, like there is so much more that I could be doing, that I should be doing. As I have thought about the events of last Monday at Trolley Square I keep thinking what more could have been done to help Sulejman work through whatever he was facing, whatever drove him to murder. Maybe I am being naive and am a wishful thinker who needs to understand reality but I think that there is more that can be done. If I would just stop worrying about my self so much. am I just rambling? maybe, but it makes me sad to think about all that is happening in the world and i wonder what it is that i can do to improve things, even if it is just something little.
i will get off my soapbox now. anyone have any fun plans for presidents day weekend? don't worry, i dont either! i remember how exciting it was when Adrienne and Meagan would come visit us on Presidents Day weekend, when we got those dang family pictures taken when I was a sophomore in high school and we all had our haircut that morning. Remind me to never get my haircut the day I want to have pictures taken. Anyways, I am doing mostly homework, working on my EMT class so that I actually pass my test, and attending the Brandon Moss Olympics. The Moss Olympics includes events such as the "egg toss" (into cups on top of heads), pudding eating contest (your partner feeds you pudding while they are blindfolded), and other games that I do not remember. I tend to only remember the messy ones. That should be really fun. Other than that I really should figure out where I am going to live next year, I just really really really don't want to! I hate finding housing, it is miserable. If any of you want to come out and find a place for me, that'd be awesome!
I hope you all have a great weekend! Enjoy yourselves and do something fun!
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I have NO plans. Bryce has to work. Boring. But I love you so...you should come down and visit me!!
Yeah...I'm watching kids. Not just mine, either. Have fun!!
i do miss you so! mom and i will be in nc hanging out.
It's kinda strange how holidays are different over here. The first day that I took off since we deployed in September was Christmas. Since then I've also been taking most Sundays off. But we don't really have holidays here.
Hey Lolo-
we haven't had much of a chance to chat on the phone this week. I have been thinking A LOT myself about the same things. I agree, I think a lot more can and should be done. However, working in the ER I see so much hurt and pain.....so much that shouldn't happen. The thing for me is that I am not jaded yet.... I don't view people as alcoholics or crackheads, or suicidal freaks. I look at those people and I think,'What is it that they are trying to numb..what hurts them so bed that they can't face a new day without drugs, or without hurting other people. It is overwhelming! I want to fix it, you know me, I would take everyone one home with me and personally tend to them but I can't. I am barely learning how to take good care of myself. I believe that we are here to help others, but there is a line, you cannot take to burdens and sadness and hurt of the world on you.You have to have hope and faith and pray that you take every oppurtunity possible to bless the lives of others. Does that make sense? I don't know it has been a rough week for me with the shootings, I cannot get those sites out of my mind. My heart literally broke. I love you Lauren. I hope you know what a huge diffrence you have made in my life and the lives of my family. You truly are an angel.
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